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Wednesday, March 31, 2010

I hate this .. I hate being alone..Load of homeworks again for the coming weekend.
Tests are all coming up,but we were just bck from holiday like last week only?This is hell , but im enduring, I can never give up half way this time round . The maximum I can do now is jus rant and rant and rant . I must finish my O no matter what tho ..

& im still not done with reading Gossip Girls, i cant wait to finish it , I wanna go to the next book of GG.

Tml is the 1st April ! It was not a big deal to me actually, but eventually its a memorable moment after thad day last year, the one I mentioned it from my last post .

YES! he's on th phone with me now ..

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Sunday, March 28, 2010

今天的心情好多了，不再想哭了。收到朋友们的简讯，都在安抚我，更感到欣慰。呵呵。。。 Anyway..there will be another holiday again on this coming Friday because its Good Friday.. Good and bad in a way . Will be staying at home again almost doing nothing fruitful besides homework and studying, its not like i can spend time with him .
Well ..well .

April's Fool day reminds me of last year's one . Hehe .. Me and him were still friends then,I had a strong feeling that he likes me even though he haven't confess to me yet . So decided to test him like I always like to test people especially my own BF ! & smsed him "hey , I injured myself, it hurts ! D: " Trying to be curious about how will he react . " OMG ??! what happen? Are you okay?!! D: " hehehe thad's his reaction , how cute was thad . . & find it funny and giggled ,so I replied him " hahaha HAPPY APRIL'S FOOL !" & he's like "oh lol , funny . You scare me , you know (= "

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Saturday, March 27, 2010

I was feeling super upset yesterday night, i needed a shoulder to cry on. Ending up crying on my boaster instead ,in th middle of the night. When something you couldn't accept with happened , you will feel as if it is the end of the world . Wonder if anybody feels the same before .It sounds over-reacting,but that's the real feeling that I encountered twice in my life . They feel equally the same. But once you found a shoulder to lean on and count on it , you are saved .Until now , I feel so troubled till I can just die on the spot. Im not over-reacting, it is heartbreaking and is a very serious matter to me after getting to know it ,it may be disheartening to any girls out there if sucha thing they come across , provided they care . So.. ended up approaching my friends ..They comforted me when im down.. Thanks . That's what friends are for .
Of course , I didn't really tell them what happen, this is a kind of privacy , I wouldn't spill it out , but eventually let them know that im too too sad/disappointed/upset/feeling useless etc etc etc.

& I really don't know what should I be at home. To be obviously sad and cry all day and night? Not possible . I wouldn't want my parents to pressure me into voicing out my problems, they can't solve it anyway .& eventually , acted like im happy since I woke up this morning .眼泪往自己的肚子里吞好辛苦。这件看似简单的一个问题，带来更多的问号，更多可能会发生的事情。因为这问题和有可能发生的事有关系。如一个不小心，新的问题会又产生。那就不仅仅成了大问题，一点都不简单嘛！
我经常都向往往远处边界着想，把有可能会发生的事都当作会发生似的，让心里有点准备。这就是我咯，不希望等到真的发生之后，才措手不及。所以一点小事就紧张，让大家以为我很大惊小怪，莫名其妙，小气鬼一个。

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Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Time passes very fast, and soon it will be April. & within this 3 months in school ,i'd since been very busy like a cow D: Homework,homework & homework, if the day happens to have no homework, i will be end up doing my own assessments for practising ,looking through notes or read a book. Reading books help to relieve my stress . Whatever it is ,im still glad that most of my collegues from Winter Time still do rmb me and contacted me or leaving msges in facebook or msn. Its like , im really sensitive about such thing and got really happy over it. Because to speak the truth , I seldom have friends who will rmb me .. I do really appreaciate their concerns . But the sad thing is , I won't have the time for them now for meeting up again since Im so busy with schoolwork.

Btw , my boyfriend is so sweet. Keep on insisting on bringing me to the doctor for a health check after knowing me im feeling sick yesterday . But even though im feeling better now ,he's still insisting ..Seeee ! You should agree he is sweeeeeet and super caring .. im so lucky baby ..

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Sunday, March 21, 2010

Another random day .. Sunday .. It doesn't make any different to me ,because here i am staying at home, almost not doing anything meaningful today ,{except to read a book , Gossip Girl (which i borrowed it yesterday at Bedok library, & don't wish to read up the whole book all at once), & do some housework as usual} As days go pass, my weekend doesn't seems like a weekend.I don't get to hang out that often anymore. Thinking back ,I really did wasted alot of my time outside when I was at the age of 14-16.
Doing nothing really important, but to hang out like most teenagers will do. 2 freaking years ,I could have spent most of my time studying like any other good students. Instead of skipping school ,classes,activities and not doing my school work seriously, I could do better.
Like what my boyfriend always tell me whenever I brought that incident up ,“只要自己知道犯了什么错或做错了什么选择，再从错误中学习/纠正过来，即时耽误了时间也没关系。”It means ,"Sometimes , its alright to take the wrong path(making the wrong decision),provided you'd realised what has gone wrong and willing to make a change ." Im not sure if that is the exact sentence he said,but it is of the same meaning,so yeah . I'd often forgotten the moral behind it and become pessimistic all over, but he will never fail to say that to me again. His word cheers me on. It is indeed a vulnerable lesson that not any other person can learn from.

I don't know why im writing these, just maybe because when you're alone , many things come up in mind.

Anyway ,he's a really 101% best boyfriend ever. He'd never abandon me to be alone,never lie to me , never abuse me,never doubt me ,do things to please me & always do his verrrrrrrry best to make me happy. But I doubted myself that am I even good for him. So .. I told him my feelings yesterday, and his consoles make me smile all the way . HAHAHA .
Im so fortunate to have him !!! I love him to the max . Im so not sick to keep on saying this,because all the words I typed here are base on how I feel in my heart.
I can't possibly typed things which are not true right ,then what's the point of having a blog. > :D

I have the urge to find him every single day , but I really can't do it. Because my parents have this thinking that, going out twice or even once every week is already TOO MUCH . So , in order to make things peaceful , I have to control and know my limit. & boyfriend's next off day is on Friday,no choice but to endure it D:
我知道我们的感情绝对是经得起时间的考验的,但心里难免还会觉得难过。

Forgot to add that , Honey ! The spaghetti you cooked for me yesterday was really nice and yummy ! :D

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Wednesday, March 17, 2010

oh no , im having a serious love sick again.. 没有他在身边真的，真的很不自在。就算让自己忙些事情，看点书和杂志，满脑子所浮现的影子还是他。。。不知道没有我在他身边，他会过得如何？是否有填饱自己的肚子后才工作呢？和同事们相处得愉快吗？难得他这人性格乐观，还蛮开朗的又幽默，和大家一定相处得融洽吧！谁会拒绝一个可以把欢笑带给大家的开心果呢？也就凭他这个优点，总是在我赌气的时候，逗我开心。虽然有时没有明显地把笑容挂在嘴边，但心里觉得很庆幸有这么一个宽容的情人。就因为他的宽容，才能包容我的野蛮性格，才能这么潇洒地把笑容戴在我脸上。

hmm.. 我是否已经爱了他太深太深了？我们昨晚才见面，这么快就想见他，这么想念他了啊！还是我不甘寂寞？不，因为我从来没有这个感觉过，从来就没有这么紧张过一个人。以前的我和现在的我还是一样，还是爱面子，还是那个野蛮女友（也许有爸的遗传基因吧！哈哈）但对情人的情感却有显然不同。你们不是我，是不明白我心里怎么想的，不知道没有他在身边我的心有如何针扎。情感的事情很难说个明白。

他实在太完美了，完美到我不知道要怎么批评他。虽然他有时惹我生气，但只是芝麻绿豆的事儿罢了，没什么大不了。我终于明白这个道理“当你真的爱一个人时，你在他身上找不到任何缺点。”起初我还未付出真感情，因为我害怕我会又再次受到伤害，我不想再重蹈同一个情景，不想再打开复原好的伤口。但现在我可以放心了。虽然我们在一起只是短短的八个多月，但我相信他，因为他值得我的信任。

他为我做的事情实在很多，无论我遇到什么困难，他都挺身而出，我真的很感动。我要的，他给我。我吵的，他让我。我还能怨言些什么呢？
就好比如，我每个礼拜二，都得到杨厝港的一所中学上夜课，由于离我家很远，回到家已经很迟了。因为担心我的安危，他放完工后，马上从勿洛赶去杨厝港接我。我告诉他，其实我可以直接让我爸从lavender地铁站接我回的，何必麻烦自己呢。但他一直坚持要亲自接我。。。你们说怎么能不打动我呢？？

我爱你 Jia Jun :D你是最棒的！^^

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Sunday, March 14, 2010

Its th school holiday now , for 1 week . But it doesnt seem fun . Load of homeworks , especially there's art homework which we have to finish th preparatory work , sick of it . & then I can't even meet my dear . Becos of his working schedule ,argh . I hate tis .. When I went to meet him ytd at th cafe , he gave me tis ..

PIGLET ! SO CUTE !

He knew I love it when i keep on saying how cute it is th other day we saw at some shop , and he went to get it . Even tho , its not th one which is exactly th same which I saw thad time , I still love it . Thanks dear . I love you .

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Saturday, March 6, 2010

HAPPY 8MONTHS,DEAR!

***Its th 6th again ... & I want to say thad ,Thanks for always being there when i needed you,Thanks for giving in to me when we were quarrelling , and we eventually become closer. & most imptly .. I love you . You are th one who make me believe in love againn..

Ytd, went to his work place and find him at arnd 5pm . & were sitting there waiting for him to finish his work for a few hours . hehee , actually to be honest , I really enjoy in watching him working . He is always so amazing , and being a gentleman in volunteering to help his collegue . 我看他工作看得入神了，连手上捧着的书都忘了该继续读下去。I admire him even more =) Suddenly feel thad he shld be th guy who i can rely on in th future .

& dear made me cheesy fries, ice cream & lasagne :D so sweet of him . & brownie somemore , but i was too full already , so didnt have it , he ate it instead . Its all my fav food !

Waiting for him to finish work...

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