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Saturday, March 27, 2010

I was feeling super upset yesterday night, i needed a shoulder to cry on. Ending up crying on my boaster instead ,in th middle of the night. When something you couldn't accept with happened , you will feel as if it is the end of the world . Wonder if anybody feels the same before .It sounds over-reacting,but that's the real feeling that I encountered twice in my life . They feel equally the same. But once you found a shoulder to lean on and count on it , you are saved .Until now , I feel so troubled till I can just die on the spot. Im not over-reacting, it is heartbreaking and is a very serious matter to me after getting to know it ,it may be disheartening to any girls out there if sucha thing they come across , provided they care . So.. ended up approaching my friends ..They comforted me when im down.. Thanks . That's what friends are for .
Of course , I didn't really tell them what happen, this is a kind of privacy , I wouldn't spill it out , but eventually let them know that im too too sad/disappointed/upset/feeling useless etc etc etc.

& I really don't know what should I be at home. To be obviously sad and cry all day and night? Not possible . I wouldn't want my parents to pressure me into voicing out my problems, they can't solve it anyway .& eventually , acted like im happy since I woke up this morning .眼泪往自己的肚子里吞好辛苦。这件看似简单的一个问题，带来更多的问号，更多可能会发生的事情。因为这问题和有可能发生的事有关系。如一个不小心，新的问题会又产生。那就不仅仅成了大问题，一点都不简单嘛！
我经常都向往往远处边界着想，把有可能会发生的事都当作会发生似的，让心里有点准备。这就是我咯，不希望等到真的发生之后，才措手不及。所以一点小事就紧张，让大家以为我很大惊小怪，莫名其妙，小气鬼一个。

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